Been Saved Longer Than I Was Lost

Having been saved longer than I was lost, all I've really got to say is I have been changed, and I am glad I am never going back. People near and dear to me have not come along. They have preferred rather to reject Jesus and to reject me, although, currently, under the guise of political persecution. Being behind on my reading tonight and tired, I may not write much tonight, but I just want to tell you briefly what I know. I know that heaven and hell are real, I know that the devil is real, spiritual warfare is real, persecution is real, tribulation is real, and, most of all, Jesus is real. I am not going to present a Bible study tonight. I have been doing that off and on for nine months to virually no avail. I have been writing verses and essays and discussed a variety of topics, and, at the present moment, I'm just not sure why I should keep doing it. My testimony in book form ("Don't Let the Devil Steal Your Song"), is available online, I have co-written a book of devotions ("Weekly Insights for the Christian Professional," with Agnes Amos Coleman, and it's available online also. I still don't have an agent, and I am no good at self-promotion. I'm just a saved soul trying to do God's will. Companies are constantly hounding me to give them more money to supposedly make my book into a movie or have me on a radio program or let them redo my book, and make it really take off, and I just don't feel that is what I should do. I am not sure exactly what to do at this point. I need to seek direction. That may mean just spending more quiet time with the Lord, that may mean just putting everything on pause, but I don't feel like God wants me to stop writing every day. So I will still do that. I'm just not sure what to make of it all right now. Sometimes I feel absolutely like an orphan, an outcast and an irrelevant person. Other times I am happy to be planted exactly where I have been planted. My parents are gone, my sister died by suicide, both of my brothers don't want to have anything to do with me, my two best friends recently died, my pets died, and I just feel kind of stuck in a rut sometimes. However, the truth is still the truth, and the lie is still the lie. The devil is the god of this world, and everyone must give an account to God. Judgment is coming for all of us because we are all sinners and lost without God. Jesus Christ, God's Son, came to earth to live as a man and suffered a cruel and wicked death on a cross to atone for the sins of every person who ever lived, then rose again from the dead and sent his spirit, which he put in me when I believed the gospel, and yet most of the people in the world have chosen not to believe, and I am very sure they will spend a godless eternity. I believed a lot of that before I was saved, intellectually, but it was the dream of hell that really got me. God gave me that and it rocked me completely out of my stupor. My prayer for all who may not have believed, is that God will shake the ground under your feet and make himself known to you like he did for me, and I say, finally, that I can guarantee anyone wavering about all of this, that you will never regret the day you said yes to Jesus, and I really must go for now. Goodnight.