The Only Thing You Can Change

I had a bit of a personal moment earlier today. I had to stop what I was doing and admit I needed something that I could not provide for myself, and there was no one in the world that could provide it for me. There was a storm in my gut, on my insides, not a physical one, although I have been suffering somewhat with the heat and worrying about the air conditioning bill when it's in the 90s outside...but that wasn't the problem. The problem was a political diatribe on Facebook that stirred me up, and made me wish I could just get away from social media altogether and never turn back. What I had seen on Facebook disturbed me so much, but I couldn't say what I wanted to say to the person and I couldn't say anything to everybody because I didn't want the person to see it and know it was what I wanted to say to him but couldn't say it. I did text my pastor about what it was about it and asked him how he would explain what it was that I was upset about. Why are people like that? Why is the world like it is? Why do I have to get upset about these things I have no control over at all? Why am I like this? Why do I have to feel this way? Can I make this feeling go away? What am I going to do? I can't take this. For the most part I am not likely to call anybody when I'm in one of those dark places. Not that I never call anybody, I call people a lot, but not usually from the pit. Here's the thing. Most of the terrible trials we go through we go through alone, that is if the people you hang with are not mean people. I mean if you get along with your people, whoever they are, life is just a whole lot easier, I think. I'm not thinking here about if someone close to you is murdered. Someone will be there, even if it is not a family member. There is usually help coming from another human being during times like that, and it is a beautiful thing. Fortunately, most trials are not that critical for most of the people, most of the time, thank God. Okay, I'm rambling a little bit here. I had seen a post on Facebook that bothered me a lot. I do not say anything on people's posts if they are someone close. If they are someone close, I leave them alone. I probably should leave them alone in any case, but anyway, this is one of those nights I have to cut it short, so I'm going to bring this to a conclusion. What I did after I settled down a little was call someone up who had reached out to me on Facebook over nothing significant, but someone I care about, so I called this person, and caught up with them. Before I called him up, I had come to this conclusion which I will leave with you. You can't change anybody but yourself. That's the bottom line. And that's what I want you to remember, and I want you to remind me when I start being upset about something I can't change. Yes, it's short and sweet but it's the truest thing in life to me today, at this moment. So, I leave it with you. I hope that helps someone.