You Can't Serve God and Mammon

I apologize right up front if all of what I wrote about tonight may be hard to connect to the title of this blog entry but I had to call it something, and that was the concept that I was thinking about. The verse that stood out for me tonight was, "No servant can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon" (Luke 16: 13). if I'm going to walk with Jesus I have to seek him every day and not be trying to figure out how I can make things work out a certain way. The longer I live in the Lord, the further and further away from the world I find myself. The Lord lets me sing for a group of widows at a retirement center once a month, and I must say it is much more rewarding than singing in bars ever was. It's really sweet because they actually listen, and it's a blessing to them and to me. Many of them actually know the words better than I do. But because tonight was my night to do that and because I am still constrained to try to get some sleep, I am not going to write much this time. I was falling asleep during a video presentation today at work, yesterday I started falling asleep on my way home from work, and yet today when I got home I couldn't take a nap. Nothing worked. Reading usually does it, but not today. Just one of those unsolved mysteries. Part of it is because I was thinking about what I was going to sing and wanted to go over everything, which I didn't end up doing either, and that's another reason I'm not going to be saying much tonight. Tired and I got to go to bed. I took a walk at lunch today, out in the country where I work. At home I hear the Interstate whenever I'm outside, but out in the country it was so quiet, except for birdsongs. Really nice, I wish I lived out there. I wish a lot of things, but things are what they are. My life is simpler than it has ever been, and I am at peace with God, so I can't worry anymore about the things I wish that are not. It's a great big waste of time and energy. I feel kind of bad for having a blank mind, and being super focused on getting some sleep, but that's the reality of this day. I wish you peace in whatever circumstances you are facing. Until next time, Carolyn