More about sad Emily Dickinson love poem

Nor could I rise with you,
Because your face
Would put out Jesus',
That new grace

Grow plain and foreign
On my homesick eye,
Except that you, than he
Shone closer by,

They'd judge us -- how?
For you served Heaven, you know,
Or sought to;
I could not.

Emily Dickinson (1839-1886) (same poem)

OK, now, I get these verses. It is widely known that she was not a believer, so she must have loved someone who was and knew that it would not work.

And I get the idea that she understood that she loved this person more than she loved Jesus.

Again, there are 4 verses between the first one I understood and those verses.

Remember the first one was:

I cannot live with you,
It would be life,
And life is over there
Behind the shelf.

That one still guns it to the floor for me.