Now What?
I waited. For what? For my substitute teaching license to process. Six weeks. OKi, well, now I'm a substitute teacher. Will still need a job come summer. Am I ahead of myself or what? It's not even winter yet. But it will soon be. Substitute teaching is really fun, though, I must say. Not boring, for sure. Every day is different.
Just went three weeks without filing a weekly unemployment cliam. Substituting is better than collecting unemployment. Unemployment pays less than minimum wage and they don't take the taxes out. So I will owe that money in a couple of months. That's terrific. Also, if you make more than 25 % over your basic benefit, they subtract it from what they pay you. And it's illegal in Kansas for substitutes to receive unemployment benefits during the summer. I'm trying to grow my faith in trusting God to provide. I need to read my book on "worry free living." They say I get stressed like this because I'm a first-born child. Or I'm driven. Or a perfectionist. Whatever. This is a crazy way to live but I guess it's good for literary types and artistic types, etc. At least that's what I used to be. I think. Once upon a time...
Learning to live one day at a time. I know that's the lesson. But it's scary. Not supposed to be scared, I know.
To be honest, since my dad died in February, it's been hard to figure out why I'm still here. Of course, my mother's still here, although just barely. In fact, she fell again last week, on her head and broke her nose. They won't fix it because they say it's "cosmetic." They also say no more brain damage. I don't believe any of them anymore.
I'm going to go for now. Nothing new to report. Still writing a Bible study a week for Suite 101. That's the only regular thing I seem to be able to do, that and working on my book, Losing Daddy.
Just went three weeks without filing a weekly unemployment cliam. Substituting is better than collecting unemployment. Unemployment pays less than minimum wage and they don't take the taxes out. So I will owe that money in a couple of months. That's terrific. Also, if you make more than 25 % over your basic benefit, they subtract it from what they pay you. And it's illegal in Kansas for substitutes to receive unemployment benefits during the summer. I'm trying to grow my faith in trusting God to provide. I need to read my book on "worry free living." They say I get stressed like this because I'm a first-born child. Or I'm driven. Or a perfectionist. Whatever. This is a crazy way to live but I guess it's good for literary types and artistic types, etc. At least that's what I used to be. I think. Once upon a time...
Learning to live one day at a time. I know that's the lesson. But it's scary. Not supposed to be scared, I know.
To be honest, since my dad died in February, it's been hard to figure out why I'm still here. Of course, my mother's still here, although just barely. In fact, she fell again last week, on her head and broke her nose. They won't fix it because they say it's "cosmetic." They also say no more brain damage. I don't believe any of them anymore.
I'm going to go for now. Nothing new to report. Still writing a Bible study a week for Suite 101. That's the only regular thing I seem to be able to do, that and working on my book, Losing Daddy.
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