Excavating For a Mine

Excavating For a Mine

Well, yesterday I felt about as close as I have in a long time to how I felt before I let Jesus into my life. I'm not even sure what all brought it on. That is, like a melt-down, like breaking down, like sad, hurt, ready to cry at the drop of a hat; better yet, weep. Emotionally on edge, desolate, you name it.

I said things in the presence of dear brothers and sisters that were better left unsaid. I didn't think it through. I don't even know what I was thinking or if I was thinking at all and to anyone who was there, I apologize. Please forgive me and pray for me.

I just want to say that I am so glad that though "I once was lost," "now I'm found." It's good to know that I am eternally safe and secure and forgiven and loved. I know that the people that know me the best will forgive me readily because we know what we are capable of without the constant work of the Holy Spirit in our lives.

The truth is I am still on the tender side today and that's OK (I'm "leaning on the everlasting arms"). I'm trusting what God is doing inside me and in all of his children. I believe he is working in all of us. Digging deep sometimes, painfully sometimes, cleaning up places and putting treasures there for him to use.

He has shown me how we are walking in darkness when we walk in this world, but he is the light and his light is within us (in whom there is no darkness at all). Therefore, we really have nothing to fear. God led Abraham "not knowing where he was going" and the same is true for us. It's hard to let go but we must. So, that's what's on my mind today.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5,6